Its again the SPM season..

Last time i see SPM as something i will be sitting in a long long long long time. That was back in primary time.
And then soon enough SPM became something i must thrive for. That was form 4 time.
And now SPM is a past tense, its the time you can brag about SPM and told juniors HAIYA EASY NIA LA.. But i didn't, cause i didnt get the best shit out of it. And also, im here in singapore, where there is not a single junior whom i can brag to.

Its all past tense now. Last time i used to view education as studying for the very important exam.
At first it was PTS, which is not even counted as an exam, most of us had forgotten it already.
And then it was UPSR.
And then i grow up to be a teenager and went into Ibrahim Sec School. And the next challenge will be PMR.
After PMR i went into science stream and the challenge is what the fifth formers are facing now. SPM.
I once thought im gonna continue with STPM. Which i nearly, but i didn't.

So it ends there.

And now i suddenly realize that there is no force that keeps me from studying like i used to in sec school. I suddenly become a very whatever person. Exam? So? ....not to mention now i don't have exam at all, and i was so reluctant to study.

Kinda lost.
How am i suppose to continue? What is the next aim? Worse still, first sem is over. What have i been doing the first sem?
Lost.