What happens when you're awake for more than 36 hours and you didnt take a nap?
Your eyes will be full of blood vessel, and you look like a vampire.

Im sorry, i cant stop feeling left out and everything.. Sorry i wasted all your energy and time telling me its not.

Cause, if im not being left out, why do i feel like years since i hang out with them, and why am i here alone in my house, getting messages from eatg telling me they dun wanna go out. And further more, i get messages from them asking me how to go a place but just to ask how to go but not asking me to go.

Kinda depressing, isnt it?

And with the exam tomorrow at 12 noon, i have to study, but god knoes im so unmotivated to study.
Cause i cant kick the feelings away.

If its you, you'll understand me, right? feeling all lethargy and as if im having a major depression. Cause all i wanted to do is just to stare into space, listen to songs and day dream. But then again, the pressure of being the top in the class comes in. People refer to me as the top in the class. If i dont get an A out of tomorrow's paper, i'll get hurt.

i know its stupid to be so confined by the pride and trying to hold my place as the first one. But thats me, i cant stand the feeling of dropping from the first to the second. Being the first gives me the satisfaction that being so far away from home to Sg to study is worth it. It soothes the homesickness.

Im listening to K's Only human. my god. i cant believe i still remember the lyrics.