idk, i just feel like rambling for nothing

NOTE: only read this if you have lots of time and sound mind to understand cause i dont think i'll make any sense.
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Since everything happened so quickly, it's been the 5th day, and everything was settled down.. From the night when jason and I rushed back to SP from NT and trapped in the jam where Jason cant stop dozing off (WAKE UP!!!), I've became more settled and calm..

My great grandma isnt someone im very very close to.. But occasionally i still got her news from my mom. mostly about her listening to one of my aunty's words because she is a nurse.. And honestly, since she had stroke years back, I've realize how important it can be for a nurse to be in the family. Cause when people need medical attention, they've got me to help them through the crisis. You know what i mean?like.. at least they won't get so panic and lost. At least there will be someone who understands the alien language the doc is talking about and translate it into human language, cause being a nurse, there really isnt much time (or patience) to explain it so detailed to the family. Then they will be saying things like "Aiya i dunno what the doc said, sounded so complicated and serious, what will happened?" and everyone panic together. Doesnt help at all. Having someone in the health care line, be it a doc, a nurse, pharmacist, physiotherapist etc really helps to make a diff in the family.

Cause it's good knowing there is someone you can rely on. And now i know the effect of not monitoring patients when i'm administering drugs. Life made me understand it in a very cruel and hurtful way. I guess i'll never see warfarin the same way now. But maybe this will inspire me to go into cardio next time to help prevent this kind of stupid mistake from happening to more patients. i'll go round telling people INR is important! It's VERY important!!! because life is so cold and mean that it can take away your loved ones in merely 9 months if you dun check INR.

Anyway back to the topic (is there any topic to begin with? heck care la)..

Of course, being so far away from home, i didnt participate in any form in the funeral, which makes things worse because there is nothing i can do but stay here alone and weep. across the sea i can still feel the sadness overwhelming me on the first day. After that, things just got natural. Besides the occasional lost-in-thoughts moments, the busy poly life does not allow me to continue dwelling with it.

And so i began my last week of year 2 sem 2. and today is the last day of school for this sem.

To celebrate, i bought 3 mini tubs of Ben's and Jerry's and enjoyed the first tub today and leave the remaining 2 for later cravings..

I know there is not much things to celebrate. but hey, think about it this way. This sem im not really half bad! All my exams is either A or B (so far) so isnt it something to celebrate? We even manage to finish and submit the blog on time for bonus marks! Thank God we dont need to maintain the blog..

Today i had the last two hours of class for this sem. The lecturer made it finish in less than an hour, which is awesome. we spent some time outside the room fooling around (sounded wrong hahaha but heck cares) before we moved on to macs.. but i bought sandwich and headed home.. Oh and my new affair(s): Ben and Jerry.

They are yummy. cool and sweet. oh my i've fallen for them. i had them in the traditional vanilla flavour today.. my first tub of ben and jerry's.. its creamier than the type of ice cream i used to eat, but if you're the one who spend the money, you'll think it's so delicious, nothing beats it.

and i brew some nice fruit tea too!! Which makes me realized im left with 4 more teabags (2 greentea, 1 lemon tea, 1 apple caramel tea) only.. How am i going to survive through the study week.. Anyway the tea that i made today is Blueberry and Raspberry tea.. i used two teabags together.. and made quite a lot.. cause im gonna need it for the whole night. It's.. nice.. but honestly, taste nothing like berries, more like plain tea.

Just now i knocked on the table, and i "ooww"-ed in a very casual manner and continues cleaning my things. But i forget the webbie is on and jason heard me oowwed and continue doing my things. @@ knocked until very used to it d. clumsiness + + +...

I guess there is enough mumbling now.. i should go and study.. Socio is the lamest subject of all.. No wait, Reseach Methodology and Stats are the lamest. hmm.. that makes socio the third lame. Forth is... umm.. Psycho? yeap. I'm so clueless when it comes to art subjects of nursing.

Ok la i go d la.. bye bye bloggie. bye bye people.