Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Love,

Being together with you is a blessing, and at the same time a curse. Seems that sometimes, we're a perfect match for each other, and sometimes, we're so different that i cant even imagine your feelings. I will not talk about the good times we've spend here, cause i know that you understand what i want to say. Here, now, i want to tell you about us, the bad side of us, and the choice you were to make, and about how i view love and relationship. So this is going to be a long post. If you are not who this letter is to be directed to, you can stop here.

I wouldnt say that us being different is good. Although opposites do attract each other, but it brings us conflicts, arguements, coldwars, fights, tears and a broken heart follows it. "Opposites attract" is a truth, many couples have been brought together because they were fascinated by the world shown to them by their partner. Like i once said, if we both have windows, mine hillview and yours seafront, together, we can have the whole world. what i havent finish is this: sometimes we'll want to have a picnic. So we decide, where should we go? You say you love to see the beach, i say i want to see the stream with tall big trees and birds singing around us. this is when conflicts come in. But if we were to fight and break, we'll either lose the hill or the sea. but if we take turns, we get both. 

I believe you know that communicating and compromising is the key for a healthy relationship. Noone wants to be dominated all the time, and the same thing applies to the one who is always making the decision. Wouldnt you want to be listened and have your suggestions being accepted? or to have a rest day and have everything planned for you without having to worry? 

Coldwar makes things worse. calming down isnt a cold war. couples will have to sit down and talk. Running from it and being pissed alone isnt helping in any way. So just in case next time, if we fight, please calm down, and talk to me after you've calmed down. Let's face the problem and solve it together. Cause thats what couples should do. They help to solve each others problems, gives support, inspiration and motivates each other to do something good. 

Ok i think enough said for the bad side of us and how i view love and relationship.. Let's move on to the more interesting topic: the Big Two. 

I know you're torn between what you want and what you need. you cant always get what you want, but if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need. =) ok i know that doesnt make any sense beside causing the song to spin in your head endlessly. (its spinning in my head now!!) erm, yea, back to the topic. 

If im just your friend, no matter what you say, i'll push you away to what you want. Cause i want to see you happy, there is nothing else to drag you back to what you need. Cause if im just your friend, you will not need it. But im not. Thats why. 

I wanted you to stay, but the same time, im afraid if you stayed, years later you'll regret. and that time, im afraid communicating isnt going to solve the problem because im being guilty. So you should go, but at the same time, you want me too. So you're torn. 

I can see you really want to go. So if you want, if you think thats where you belong, then go. I know its still long, i hope when the time is right, you can look back this post and laugh. 

And you'll say to yourself "How silly, why do i even hesitate that time?!" 

Thats when you know where you should go. 

with love, forever yours, 

Wen Yi